I knew the time would come but I was hoping for at least one more year.
Four years ago, I interviewed for a city department in Seattle. It was part of their continual recruitment process that granted those living out-of-state (such as myself) the ability to apply to their in-house openings.
I was accepted into their program and landed a couple job interviews along the way but was never picked. At the twelve-month mark I asked for an extension (the exclusive access expires after a year) and it was granted again and again…and again.
The last extension expired last month and when I asked for another extension, it was denied. I reached the maximum amount of renewals.
It was disappointing but rules are rules. They were gracious enough to let me stay in the system for as long as they have.
I'm losing the dream of being able to run away to Seattle, knowing I had a good way of landing a job there. It's that "way out" that I'm mourning.
HR told me I could reapply for the continual recruitment process when it opens up again next year so at least that's something.
Deep in my heart I still feel like I was meant to be in Seattle. But now with both of my university jobs and having recently bought my own condo, I feel like I'm bound to Chicago more than ever.
Maybe there's still something that needs to be done here before I can be free there.
I haven't forgotten about you, dear Seattle. I hope you haven't forgotten about me either...