Sunday, May 12, 2013

Forgetting Seattle.


It was gray out. Chilled winds played with my hair while misting rain caressed my face.

I closed my eyes and pretended I was in Seattle...but I wasn't.

The weather finally turned to my favor this past Friday here in Chicago. It was a total grey day.

It made me think of my times visiting Seattle and sadly realizing I'm starting to forget.

Myrtle Edwards Park, Queen Anne, Taco Time, Mount Rainier, Capitol Hill, Marché. I miss all of it.

Walking under Highway 99 in the rain. Construction crews with their noisy machinery nearby. I cried at that spot because it was all so lovely. I remember that...in pieces.

Even though the memories are fading, I do know I felt free and happy there--things I'm not in Chicago.

As the heat and humidity and summer sun are on their way in the Windy City, I want to be anywhere but here.

One day you'll have the life and relationship and career you want, Dean. Just not right now.

Just be patient and don't forget.

7 comments:

naturgesetz said...

Nice graphic.

By all means hang on to the memories and hopes. But don't let them poison the present. Keep letting yourself find things to enjoy.

becca said...

one day you'll make it to Seattle I just know it

Mind Of Mine said...

Move to Seattle.

You are so worried about what is socially appropriate that you sacrifice your own happiness for it. You close yourself of from enjoyable experiences because people might judge you for it, or it might be seen as selfish.

Fuck it, just do it.

Nicholas said...

Don't worry man, it's not like it's going anywhere. :)

Dean Grey said...

naturgesetz!

You are so right about that.

I'm letting my hopes for the future ruin my time here and now. I need to work on that.

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Becca!

I hope so!

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Mind Of Mine!

Oh no, Ian. The ONLY reason I'm not going to Seattle is because I don't have a job lined up first.

I swore I'd only move out there if I had a way to support myself. I'd be putting myself in financial danger to do otherwise.

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Nicholas!

I agree with this.

Every time I get impatient about not living in Seattle, I keep reminding myself that it'll still be there a year from now. Or two or three.

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Thanks to all of you for your comments!

-Dean

Dean said...

My son moved to Seattle four years ago. It did not pan out as he hoped. He is on the peninsula now. The slower pace of life is better for him.

Best wishes on achieving your dreams. I have lived in enough places to learn that no place is perfect.

Dean Grey said...

Dean!

I'm sorry to hear things didn't work out for your son in Seattle and yet it sounds like he found something better because of it.

I agree, no place is perfect but I can't deny there was something deep inside me that felt like I belonged in Seattle. That I needed to be there.

-Dean