Maybe it's because I was out in the BRIGHT afternoon sun for two hours or hadn't eaten lunch and was tired.
Surely it shouldn't be that frustrating.
I went apartment hunting yesterday. Not at the actual insides but just the addresses of several buildings. To see if I even wanted to live there, what the locations where like, and what I could afford.
At times I felt very awkward and anxious--like I didn't fit in, even though the neighborhood seemed like a nice place to live. It was all so new to me.
And even though I want to be on my own, away from my family, that day I just wanted to go home and cry--where it was familiar.
Certainly if I contemplated leaving for another state, I should be able to handle moving to a different part of a city I lived in my whole life, right?
Searching out locations and gathering information is a solid start. At least I'm making the attempt.
If I'm not allowed to be free in Seattle then I will be free in Chicago...or die trying.
To be continued (hopefully sooner than later).....