Monday, October 24, 2011


It finally caught up with me.

I wasn't sure how much longer I could keep this up and now I found out.

Becoming terribly sick this weekend, I had to call off work today.

Watercolors in Moleskine journal - (NFS)

I've been working three part-time jobs for the past several weeks--sometimes all in one day--and I'm TIRED.

Half the time I don't know what day it is or if I'm coming or going. Yet I always manage to smile it off at work, hiding the weariness that's underneath.

Often I'm sleep-deprived....some days getting less than 5-6 hours bed rest, leaving me with a constant ache and heaviness in my body.

To start the day already depleted does not feel good.

But I must keep going.

I'll need that money so when I'm finally on my own I never have to go back to family. And with talks of layoffs to city workers again I dare not give up any job until I know which ones are certain.

New love is the only thing keeping me going right now otherwise I'd have succumbed a while back.

No matter how drained I may be I keep telling myself one day I shall be FREE!


naturgesetz said...

I went for years getting about 5 hours of sleep most nights, just because I'm a night owl. But everybody's requirements are different. Don't ruin your health.

Do you have any idea how long it will be before you know whether you'll be keeping your city job? If you can't keep up the three jobs that long, might it make sense to give up the one at the store? Perhaps it would be easier to get something else like that if you were to lose the city job than to land another job with the city or the university if you were to quit either of them.

Good luck; get well; and take care of yourself.

Jacky Le said...

wow that is crazy!!!! no wonder your immune system is shutting down. too much energy is been used to keep up with the jobs. To minimise the possibility of a relapse in the near future is try to eat as much as you can. btw, i like how you use the drips to emphasise the meaning of "drained".

Unknown said...

Here's hoping! May we all some day arrive at the land of milk and honey. Until then, mountain dew and bagels will have to do.

Anonymous said...

"I've just gotta get outta this prison cell. Someday I'm gonna be free, Lord!"
I'm sorry you're not feeling well. Get better soon!
In reply to your last comment... YES! I've been to Chicago lots of times. I have a bunch of family up there. It's a beautiful city. I've always wanted to spend time and explore down town.

Jeff Chandler said...

This picture sums up the feeling perfectly. Really nice.

JuJu said...

Feel better Friend! Take the day to rest and rejuvenate.

I'm so darn happy that the love you have found is giving you strength.

Mike said...

My hat is off to you for being so determined!

Randuwa said...

Rest, Boo Boo. Rest for yourself. Rest for your New Love. Rest for the rest of us! :-)

stanw said...

Hope you feel better soon, but please take good care of yourself. {{HUGS}}

Rebecca said...

hope you get some rest today all that work is going to make you very sick need to take care of yourself sweetie. so go now and rest

Unknown said...

I totally understand honey. I'm lucky enough to have one job.. one job that I work at constantly. Been working so much overtime I don't know what day it is anymore.. and with every paycheck, a new setback that takes all my "extra" money away. Hang tough, Dean.. You are not alone. Much love.

Ken Riches said...

So glad you have positive thoughts to keep you going. Hope this comment finds you feeling better.

Dean Grey said...


I believe a decision regarding the city layoffs will be reached by mid-November of this year.

Just a few more weeks!



Hmm, why would eating a lot help prevent me from getting sick and run down?



LOL at Mountain Dew and bagels.




Then one day you MUST explore the Loop (immediate downtown area)!



Thank you, sir!



I pretty much rested that entire day!



I'm trying!



Done, done, and done!



(((HUGS))) back at you!






You hang in there too, girl!



Yes, feeling better now.


Everyone's supportive words are greatly appreciated!