An unassuming, 20-something girl with glasses approached me while I waited for the Red Line the other day. She said she was with the RedEye.
Chicagoans are well aware of this free newspaper, known for its trendy topics and flashy pictures over hard-hitting content. It's like a watered down Chicago Tribune for people on the go, or with short attention spans, or those not that into in-depth news coverage.
It's become a staple for commuters, businessmen, and college students traversing the Loop.
Anywho, this "reporter", with pocket notebook in hand, asked for my thoughts on the coming rapture which supposedly occurs sometime today (!!!).
My response would've been something witty like, "Good thing I didn't pay this month's credit card bill yet!"
But instead I politely smiled, "I really don't want to be in the paper."
For you see, the RedEye always takes a picture of each Chicagoan they "interview"....their headshot alongside the printed quote.
With my self-image issues, the idea of my photo being immortalized for ALL of Chicago to see made me cringe. I was too self-conscious about the way I look to take a chance.
Looking back on it days later, it would've been a quirky, fun piece of Chicago counterculture to have taken part in.
It reminds me of all the opportunities I missed out on because I was too scared or worried or nervous. Maybe one day I won't care so much about what other people think of me, or rather, I'll think a bit more of myself.