Thursday, March 10, 2011

Even if for a day.

I know the weeks ahead will get harder for me.

I'll be damned if I do, damned if I don't.

If I get the new, consolidated position at the arts-and-crafts store, it'll mean working more hours/days at a place I already loathe. Yet if I'm not picked and out of a job, my income will be decreased by almost half.

Any hopes of living on my own and not being dependent on family will be dashed.

For that reason, I wanted to get away from EVERYTHING for a little while. While the weather was still nice out (cloudy and cold) I decided to go see a movie. This year's Oscar-nominated (animated) short films to be exact!

I was thoroughly entertained by each film. Wow!

Once the movies were over, I found out the live action, Oscar-nominated short films would be playing a half hour later. So I said what the hell, bought another ticket, and saw those too!

Today's ticket stubs!

My early afternoon outing now extended into the evening!

I laughed a lot and even cried a few times. I'm so glad I finally got to see those short films!

Even though I didn't have anyone to accompany me, it was nice to get out and do something FUN for a change.

I could've easily pulled the covers over my head this morning and stayed home on my day off but was determined not to do so--that's the main thing.

And while walking through the neighborhood where the movie theater was located, I thought how nice it'd be to move here one day. To be closer to the city.

I even looked at fliers posted around town announcing new apartments. I gasped when I saw "glitter floors" but quickly realized with my poor vision that the leaflet read "great hardwood floors".

*disappointed sigh*

Although I'm working both jobs tomorrow and will be working this weekend too, I'm glad I got to enjoy life....even if for a day.


Caleb said...

That's so funny. I live just down the street from the theatre, and was in Bally's while you were at the movie!

Small city.

naturgesetz said...

Yay for not pulling the covers over your head!

Yay for giving yourself something enjoyable to do!

Don't feel bad about being dependent on family. You know that if the positions were reversed, you'd gladly support your family.

It would have been great (for me, anyway, if not for you) if I could have shared the day with you. Thanks for letting me have the joy of experiencing it vicariously.


Anonymous said...

Ohmygoodness! Glitter floors??
That would be so awesome!! I'm sorry, but it totally would beat tile or wood any day. I suppose it could get a bit on your nerves.
Dean, good luck with your job.
I hope you liked the movies!

Adam said...

hope everything will turn to good for you *keeps fingers crossed*

Writer Yogi said...

I'm glad you had a good time too. And it is definitely easy to shut yourself in! I know that feeling for real. I love movies so thats a great pick me up! Also, it was spontaneous to an extent woo! :) As for the glitter floors, in the summer I think it would be a bit too much for the eyes! lol. Sorry for your disappointment though. lol

bK said...

That's great, Dean. I'm glad you could have the day to enjoy yourself. You deserve it.

JuJu said...

Man, those glitter floors would have been perfect!

Good for you!! The best investment you can ever make is in yourself, so treat yourself as often as possible!! Surround yourself with beauty.

Anonymous said...

thats what its all about...enjoy the moments we have, no matter how big or small. Keep your chin up friend, one day you'll have someone to go to the movies with and a sparkle floor :)

Rakesh said...

Glad you're staying focused and on track toward that goal of living by yourself. :) And when you get a place of your own, I hope you do get to have glitter floors!

Rachel Ott said...

I highly recommend seeing movies by yourself. Glad to see you're still doing things to stay positive in light of this life change.

Writer said...

Dean, it is both good and important to always take some time and get away, to get engrossed in something that lifts you up. :)

Whatever happens, good luck. :)

Dean Grey said...


Wow! What are the odds of that!






Glitter floors would RULE!



I appreciate that!

And welcome to The Doughnut Gang!



Yeah, there have been SO MANY times where I just stayed at home, too depressed and stuck to even move.



Awww....thanks for that, Brody!



I like the idea of it being an investment in myself!


David Allen Waters!

I will keep my chin up!



You're always a big supporter of me being independent.



I'm trying to stay as positive as I can!



So agreeing with you!


Everyone's encouraging words are greatly appreciated!


Anonymous said...

Glittery flooring?
Also: Kudos for not staying in bed. Very tempting, I must say for everyone, especially when your first thought is math. Then you're thinking, "What is wrong with me!? Why am I thinking about algebra at five in the morning?" Anyway! Good job, we all know how hard it is to get up every morning and go through the same old routine.
Ah..."La Vie Boheme."
We're going against the grain.
(all that "La Vie Boheme stuff is from Rent. < my lame excuse of a citation.)

Unknown said...

Your post just motivated me not to pull the covers over my head and stay in while wallowing in my misery...THANKS!!! I'm going out to do something enjoyable instead!

Ken Riches said...

Hope the interviews go well and you get the job. Hang in there for the next few weeks.

Dean Grey said...

She Who Shall Not Be Named!

I need a new routine SOON!


Koral & Nandy!




I appreciate that, sir!


Thanks to the three of you for stopping by!


Unknown said...

I have to replace the carpet before I sell my home. The realator suggested laminant but I think I'll go for glitter :)

Dean Grey said...


Glitter RULES!