When I reached the bustling city I felt anxious but relieved. After an entire week of not leaving the house, I finally managed to take the train downtown yesterday. I ran a few errands and treated myself to an afternoon movie in the Loop.
It was so nice to get away from things for a while. Afterwards, I sat by the Chicago Riverwalk, taking in the mighty skyline and the earthy smell of the water just a stone's throw away.
So serene and beautiful and lovely!
The Chicago Riverwalk near Centennial Fountain
Friday was cloudy and cool, almost chilly. Just the way I like it!
I deliberately picked a spot rarely traveled by tourists and had the area mostly to myself. It reminded me that I'm still alone yet I felt so open and free! And I would give up being with someone if it meant absolute freedom any day!
For over 2 1/2 hours I sat by the riverwalk and thought about things. I just didn't want to go home....back to the way things were. I guess I wanted to stretch the moment out for as long as I possibly could.
And before finally leaving, I said a prayer of thanks. That I may have this feeling again someday. That it wouldn't just be a fleeting thing but that I could truly be free!
For now a piece of my heart will stay with the city until I return from the sadness.
Is the depression gone? No, it never will be. It comes in waves and intensities and right now it's lessened compared with earlier in the week.
I feel like I can get some much needed drawing and painting done again, which is what I intend to do!
Thank you, everyone!!